Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Down Today

So it happens from time to time...I'm feeling down today. Part hormones, Part other things. Sigh. I don't guess there's much I can do about it. Sometimes, a lot of times, I wish I were somewhere else. I wish I were around more people that loved me unconditionally. I often feel I lack a dependable support system in my life. I may just feel that way because Katrina took away what was comfortable, but I'm not sure. I miss my parents most. Sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me missing them like I do. Maybe I need to leave and cleave better, but it's not as if I want to go live with them again or anything. And it's certainly not as if I'd rather be with them than my family. That is not the case at all. I think it is just a normal part of life in families that are close. I hear people desperately miss parents that have been deceased for years.

Today has been frustrating anyway, so that doesn't help. Mercy was supposed to be in Mother's Day Out for a few hours, but she's cutting a new tooth and they wanted me to come get her cause she was "sick." She is extra grumpy--all the more reason I needed some time apart--but here we are. She doesn't have much of an appetite and she's tired, but at this point she can't nap for another hour. So we are watching Baby Einstein. I'm blogging and trying to eat lunch. I didn't get a chance to clean like I had hoped, so I will have to get as much done as I can during her nap. Then Jason's parents are coming over to watch Mercy while I go to Kid's Market to shop. That should be the highlight of my day, though I have to go it alone. Oh well, things will get better...I'm sure of it.


Lacey said...

Gini, please let me know if there is anything that I can do for you. I am here if ever you need to talk. I miss you and love you much! Hope that you feel better soon! Lacey