Thursday, May 11, 2006

What's Today's Date?

The life of a stay-at-home mom... I have asked the above question several times today. And except for paying bills, what reason have I for knowing the date? I am a stay-at-home mom by default and sort of by choice. Hurricane Katrina blew my family to Alabama and pulled the carpet of employment out from under me. It being 8 months later I am coming to grips with it all, but still find myself missing adults, and being bored. I know that this is a trying time in my life and that life will not always be this way, so I wait.

I'm beginning to wonder really if waiting is what I'm supposed to be doing. I remember a few years ago when I would take nothing for granted. Every new thing was an opportunity. What happened to that girl? Did she drown in the flood or get lost at the hospital when I was giving birth. One of my friends said that I was simply trying to find my identity as a mother rather than an individual. That sounds logical to me, but isn't there room for both. I mean isn't it better to be a balanced combination of these things? I really liked Gini as an individual. She was fun-loving, spunky, outgoing, attractive, smart, and so on. Can't I still be these things and be a mom? What a cool mom I could be if I figured this balance out! I hope I find me soon so I can be the wife and mom that my family deserves.


Anonymous said...

Nice to know there are others like me out there

Meredith Peel said...

Hey I got an idea, sis, you have the babies and I'll raise them!