Wednesday, September 12, 2007


So, I'm in this bible study...Seeking Him. It's a bunch of gals about my age and such and we are praying for individual revival. This is really scary and I knew it was, but I had no idea. The wiles are already at work. A gal who had done this study before said to get ready cause in order for us to be ready to receive the revival work that God is obviously working all around us, we have to ready our preparing the soil for a harvest. 6 weeks of toiling, and tilling and breaking up the fallow ground! This is painful! It's terribly uncomfortable! I wanna go back to bed and wake up when God is finished, but it doesn't work like that. Unfortunately.

After all that went on in Katrina and the experience that it was, the last thing I need or want is to lose a sense of stability and footing, and yet that is where I am...stepping away from what's comfortable and has gotten me through a very rough time in my life. I accepted the challenge from God this a.m. with great reluctance, looking forward to what will be more of an end result (thought there's never really an end with this growing in Christ stuff), and dreading the process!

He is not holding back. This has been one of the worst days I've had in nearly a year! For reasons I can not say, and many unknown to me, things are kind of turned on their side and I'm in a place of waiting, kind of stuckness. I'd rather be moving forward, but things in life are on hold again. Ugh. So I wait. And I pray. And I ask you to pray too...for me and my family and our emotional and spiritual health. I'm still clinging to God's truth's in his word, but I want to be angry and I want to rebel. Keep praying please.


It's a Mom Thing said...

Praying for you, friend!!! And I know without a shadow of a doubt that God is going to use this study to work in all of us.

Nico said...

Gini you are in my thoughts and prayers.